Dear Isak.

I think that’s what I suspected, you seem to be rejecting the personal God of Judaism and Christianity, if I interpret you correctly. Nature is impersonal. According to many spiritual traditions, so is ‘God’, otherwise known as the Ultimate, Transcendent, Divine, creative Consciousness. So, I wouldn’t call you an atheist, but you are of course free to choose to carry on calling yourself that.

Very best wishes.